Hello.
I feel better now compared to just now already.
Running man and funny conversations made my day.
One just happened very recently (like 5mins ago? rofl)
Lets name this person T.

T : Eh i think he want you do BJ for him.
XT : I rather do BJ for a lollipop




Recent events has been making me weaker and weaker.
I cant even open my eyes properly now because of all the crying for the past 2 days.
sob..
Hope my mom would not notice it.

I've been doing a lot of wrong things for the past 4 days thanks to my PMS.

However, i know that there're somethings that cannot be undone or saved. 

Next time when im having my PMS i'll just meditate at home until my period is over, haha..

That way no one would get hurt, upset or angry at my words and action.

sobbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb

A ; 

I'm sorry to A for making her upset for saying things that i did not mean to at that point of time. 

I dont know why i said them, but i just did. 

I know that I've made her very upset and angry that night, and she hasnt been replying me until now and i dont know how to make her reply me and tell me that she has forgiven me. 

I guess i'll just have to wait then? 

I just want to tell her that i am very very very very very sorry , sincerely, truly and i hope that she wont be mad at me forever because she told me, that im the next closest person to her next to her family, and so she is to me. 

She also once told me that, if our friendship would be destroyed just because of one small thing, then our friendship would not be strong at all. 

I hope that this friendship have not ended yet because she's a very dear friend of mine and according to my horoscope, her horoscope is my happy pill :( . 

I no happy without you .

I love chu sis ;'(

B ;

I feel that i've let you down a lot by saying many hurtful things to you. 

I dont know why i'm doing that. 

Maybe im just jealous of you treating other people the same although you said that im a important friend to you. 

You were the first friend that I made this year, and the only person whom i let close to after a few years.

 No, i dont have a crush on you, because i think i have lost the ability to love guys for some reason lol..

But i loved you very much as a friend. 

I didnt mean to say all those things to you, but i couldnt help myself from telling someone how i feel. 

My friends all tell me not to bottle up my feelings and troubles, but when i told you my feelings and troubles, it caused even more troubles.

From that, i learnt that i would just continue to bottle my feelings inside, its happier for everyone else. 

anyway, thats not the point of this post. 

The point is that Im just jealous of everything that every other girl gets. 

Yes, im not properly opened up because I dont talk much in real life to someone whom i just met.

I can chat with my other friends well because i've known them for a freaking long period of time and i trust them 10000000000000000times more but i trust you a lot too, thats why i was telling you about all these.

No one else knew, except for you A and me. I didnt want to tell other people because i dont want them to show me their pity. 

Anyway, its getting too long and naggy...

I just wanna say that i'm sorry for always being so scary to you. 

I hope you would forgive me, although our friendship can never be like the way it is before, but we can still be friends right? 

I feel so frustrated whether if i still like him or not, sob. help me


Lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CANDY !!!!! Finally 17 already hor , dog !!!!

dont stalk me ah i tell you first, iwill scare. LOL!!!

Xiuyun's birthday in less than 6 hours, 

Hope i can be the first to wish her a happy birthday besides her bf..

teehee.. 

KatyPerry - TheOneThatGotAway